Never thought that life could be lived with so few worries... so thankful for the peace found in buddhist meditation...for seeking refuge in somewhere that actually makes a lot of sense....something that actually proves that it's possible to rest in peace...in the comforts of your bedroom...and not in the comfort of a coffin

So things are coming to a conclusion....

Last day at the lab....well...officially decided to just not work anymore...

Concluded the adventure of searching for a religion...just found one....

Decided to admit that I'm really going to the US....flight tickets are booked....

Ceading to be too obsessed with taichi....understanding things in perspective...profound it may be....but it can also be abused...

All that is subject to arising....is subject to passing away.... so this is it... I've come to realise....endings and beginnings are one and the same...just these cycles we've traversed not once but many times.....we are just so unaware of it...

Just read something I'm just beginning to be aware of....

Awareness is your refuge

Awareness of the changingness of feelings,

of attitudes, of moods, of material change, and emotional change

Stay with that, because it's a refuge that is indestructible

It's not something that changes

It's a refuge you can trust in

This refuge is not something that you create

It's not a creation. It's not an ideal

It's very practical and very simple

but

easily overlooked or not noticed

When you are mindful

you're beginning to notice

it's like this

Sometimes indeed we're so unattentive, we're don't even know we're unattentive...

So see the nature of things....as they are....not through dirty window...

Wipe it clean....try meditation... try to be still....to be calm....wisdom will flow

There's no need to force....to control....to dictate....just be totally aware of life....this moment....the minutes taken to read these words....the time it takes to chew a morsel of food....or better yet...the seconds it take to breathe in and out.....